My mind goes from feeling lost.. empty.. reckless.. lonely.. worthless.. ~TO~ ..found.. full.. careful.. social.. worthy....

the interesting part of this saga of emotions, up and downs and all around towns is that while my mind is racing rapidly,  they are empty thoughts with this empty hollow hole inside of me.. all empty yet my mind races and i couldn't figure out how that could be. i know, it sounds kinda crazy but that's what i don't want anyone to feel with bipolar disorder or any other mental illness. we all serve a purpose here on this earth and mine is tell u what these crazy thoughts of nothing are.. or at least how best that i can describe them. just quick flashes of  words, phrases, comments.. things that i will never be able to say again or hear again or things that have been unresolved that will never be resolved or unanswered questions that add up to hundreds and analyzations into each and every thoughtless thought passing through my brain .. .. i feel like a fluffy marshmallow ..yum heehee  ok, i would eat all of myself and there would really be thoughtless thoughts then.. :D  at any rate, i just wanted to quickly write about what i was feeling these past few hours too many.. wondering when this cycle ends, who knows.. it's not the best but also not the worst.. i am up and i am down but i know one thing is that; when i write.. i feel like i am somebody and that's because I am ♥ don't stop chasing dreams, don't quit and never give up. you will get to where you want to be, or maybe u have no idea where u are heading but there is a plan, a special plan that you will prosper and live long healthy fulfilling successful lives. just dont ever think you are crazy and if you do for a moment, it's ok.. but then laugh about it and just be you.. i know that me is all i have for the rest of my life, so i better start to get to know me again. winks  xxoo  Kristi