This thing called life

Some may call me dumb, naive, stupid and worse bc of the choices I have made in my life. Some good and some were bad and others were horrible horrible horrible. I guess we don't ask to be born but moreless, we don't ask for the way we grow up. We just learn from those around us and we watch intently and we grow and learn from them. The ones who teach us the most are our parents and I grew up around abuse. We grew up around the finer things, like your typical middle class family. I was taught well, raised well but I also was abused. I don't see the abuse as a negative in my life but rather a positive bc it helps me understand a lot more about myself. This weakness I may have portrayed or felt in my life is becoming my biggest strength ever. To have parents who are sopossed to love you and be there for you and never hurt you, they hurt me the most. I have put up a shield and the shield has kept the good away and let the bad in so close to me. I hate the word victim bc it sounds weak and I am a strong beautiful smart woman. I have a handsome son who is so bright and he's my world. God and jesus and my son and my sons step mom have really changed my life for the better. I'm so proud and have the world in the palm of my hands. Don't give up faith, never give up.